1mth old

29Dec is Lucas 1 mth old.. feel so bad abt it.. Never do any shower for him not even a small celebration... Hubby was abit sick and Lucas had his 1 mth shots today... Then i also went to see a doctor.. My whole bodies are all filled with rashes and it is spreading.. OMG.. wat happen to the whole family..

Coming to the year end liao.. Whole family need to see doctor.. Hate it when tis happen.. Last winter here liao too.. and all tis happening to us.. Hopefully new year will be better..

Thought of helping Lucas to do his shower tml if hubby is better.. I feel really bad.. Genevieve's shower was so big and so much things.. Lucas had nothing.. I dun even had much time for him.. I never really spend the time talking.. singing or even massaging for him after his bath.. Even for Genevieve.. Cause too tired to play with her.. Have to do tis and tat.. Now she spends alot of time playing computer..

I must admit i am a lousy mom.. My discipline is inconsistency.. Now Genevieve cant sit still to eat her meals and no standard sleeping time.. Sometimes i hopes times flies faster but sometimes i hope time flies slower.. haha... bad hor.. haiz...

I hope it will not be too late to change her habits.. I am trying hard to spend time wif her..

Wondering wat should i do to become a better mom...

50% Clearance

Christmas is over... Sales is all around... Tis 2 days have been going round and round to look for Xmas clearance... All places had reduced 50% liao... We bought alots of stuffs... Next we will be waiting for 75% clearance for those Xmas deco... Then if the items reduces to 75%.. then we will return the one we bought.. hahaaaa.. cheapo rite..


We bought 2 Xmas trees.. Now deciding which one to keep... its abt 6.5" tall.. a good buy after all.. Wat best is.. We bought 3Fisher Price toys.. 50% off too.. If in Singapore.. Its will be very super duper expensive.. Really a good buy..


Now beside buying all tis things.. I dunno wat to do next.. Lifes is getting more hectic and tiring.. Its fun going round and round looking for goodbuy.. but i dunno y.. Like no mood to shop.. I wana shop but haiz.. mayb tired ba.. plus now with my little baby.. going out will be tougher.. cos we cant go out long and i also need to do expressing.. plus Genevieve dun listen at all.. so.. hopes times flies faster..

White Christmas....

Ho Ho Ho... Merry Christmas to all...Tis Christmas is a wonderful WHITE Christmas... I have little Lucas to join us and Santa had granted our wishes.. Snow.. Its snowing and abt 2inches thick or more.. A beautiful white Christmas... We are so happy.. Because its our last Xmas here.. We are going back in May 2010..

We held a little party at our place and after eating.. All went out for snow ball fight.. except me and Lucas.. hahaha... Genevieve had a lot of fun... She followed her daddymaking snowball and hit people.. but poor Genevieve.. Her hand and face was so freezing cold... so painful... put alot of moisturizer for her.. And she was very tired... dozed off after drinking her milk..

The rest of the party rested awhile and starts their gifts xchanges.. Had so much fun.. Long time never had a crowd in my place liao.. Furthermore i did not help baby Lucas do his shower.. Feel bad but no one around..

But glad that everyone had fun and go home with a gifts they loved..

No water again

Haiz.. the management over here really sucks... no water again.. last week also no water.. everytime no water.. I need water badly..


Its make my day bad.. real bad.. dared not drink water.. scared of going pees and poos.. how to flush.. how to wash hand.. how to cook.. how to wash laundry.. Had a hard time cooking dinner.. All tis give me a headache... Although hubby prepared a few pots and bottles of water.. its still not enough.. i need alot..


Lucky have bathe Baby Lucas yesterday.. Genevieve have to wait till later in the evening..


Not to mention the water.. today was quite a peaceful day.. not much cries from both babies.. Esp Genevieve.. Hopefully everyday is like today.. Better if i can catch a nap la.. haha.. of cos if i wana nap.. either i have to finish all the chores early in the morning or i have to close one eye.. and go sleep.. of cos i will close one eye la..

Hope time fly faster

My weekend flies so fast.. 2 days passed and hubby going work again.. Have to struggle with my 2 precious.. It was so tough and tiring.. But veri fast.. my baby Lucas is about a month old liao.. then slowly 2 month.. 3 month and grow and grow.. Kids grow so fast tat my Genevieve is 3 years old liao.. Been with hubby about 10 years liao.. Seem like getting old.. hahaa....





I have the urge of packing boxes as and when liao... Wanted to go back to Singapore as early as i can... Dunno y.. I used to think if i can stay here longer.. better.. but now i wan to go back earlier.. but of cos.. i will miss here alot.. SHOPPING.. and CVS.. hahaaa..





Hubby had been helping me running the errands to CVS after my birth.. He seem enjoying it... and really good at couponing.. Now doing all marketing himself...


Sometimes misses the days with used to have.. Alone..dating and when thinking back.. how i know him and surprise everyone by getting together.. and also was flashing back alot of memories recently.. Dunno why.. Mayb getting old.. afraid of forgetting abt the past.. Good and Bad..


I was also thinking.. If i wasnt with my hubby.. wat will i become.. stupid mi rite.. think all tis for wat.. haha.. i also dunno... But now.. Really feel so blissful and happy.. Cos i have a wonderful family.. no matter how tired.. how hard its going to be.. It all worth it for them...

Early Xmas Celebration..

Ho! Ho! Ho! Genevieve's school had an early celebration for Xmas tis year... and Genevieve will be performing.. Yay.. We are all very excited about it.. Although not the first time.. But Genevieve enjoys it and we are also bring Lucas along to support her..


Having some problems int the morning.. Because Genevieve slept late the day before.. She doesnt want to wake up and change.. Took alot of effort to change her... and set off for school... My poor hubby.. Not enough sleep.. only slept for 2hours plus only ba.. No choice...





Genevieve performance starts at 10am.. before that we went for breakfast with Lucas.. A small moment without Genevieve..




Genevieve looks so happy when performing and the most active one.. Sing and Dance.. and when she saw us.. she was so happy and enjoy herself even more.. Look so adorable and sweet... Total different when at home.. hahaaaa...


She likes her teacher, Ms Pam alot.. keep asking for her and even at home.. like to copy her way..


I loves the way she believe in school.. like an ANGEL.. but Demon at home.. At home.. Now with little Lucas.. DANGER

H.e.a.r.t.b.r.o.k.e.n

Hubby jux left for work.. Me now alone with my 2 precious gems.. Genevieve and Lucas.. Seeing her daddy going to work.. Genevieve feels sad.. but no choice.. her daddy need to work.. cannot stay home with her..

Seeing her cry.. makes me crys too.. I feel so heartbroken when seeing her tears fall.. She kept asking her daddy not to go to work.. Luckily after awhile she was fine.. when her daddy bought her lunch and pacify her..


I dunno whether is it my problem or wat.. I kept thinking about the negative things going to happen instead of thinking postively.. I feels like i rely hubby too much.. and now when hubby not around.. i feels helpless.. I wana think positively in a better way.. Thinking i can cope even when hubby not around.. instead of wat should i do.. wat will happen.. Things can work out beautifully.. I must have faith in myself.. I can DO IT..

I CAN DO IT... I CAN DO IT... BE PATIENT.. BE PATIENT... HAVE FAITH IN MYSELF.. HAVE FAITH.. I HAVE 2 BEAUTIFUL ANGELS AND 1 GUARDIAN ANGEL BY MY SIDE.. I MUST BELIEVE IN MYSELF THAT I CAN DO IT..

hubby going back to work..

Sobz.. Sobz.. Hubby going back to work tomorrow liao.. The real challenge starting soon in a few hours time.. Whether i can cope anot.. I cant tell you yet.. Cause i'm not confident yet.. I am scare too..





Wanting to ask my parents over.. but air tix is too ex liao.. They say January then come over if the air tixs are reasonable.. On the other hand.. i was wondering.. if they come over.. sure they will help mi alot.. even though is a short period of time.. Hopefully.. I also want them to come.. But i was also thinking after they go back i also need to face it.. and somemore i am going back in MAY.. should i or should i not ask them come over.. I am not sure too..





When planning tis baby.. Hubby and i have known it will be hard to go thru.. But dunno why suddenly i am so dammed stress out.. I can see Hubby also tired liao.. even though he tried to act strong..





He is going back to work tomorrow.. He need to help me look after the 2 kids too.. and he need to worry for me.. Can he take it?? Can i take it??





I was also thinking of going back early with my parents they all.. But i will miss him.. so wat should i do??

To follow.. Or not to follow

I was wondering.. Why chinese confinement got so many things to follow.. unlike the western or others.. simple and easy.... sometimes whether if its true anot.. No ones noe.. they jus say and say.. When you never take care during confinement.. you will have alot of aching all over your body...

My 2 precious baby..

Sometimes i wana follow but i jux find it hard to accept.. no bathing.. no tis and tat.. mux eat tis and tat.. Dun understand... Now hubby helping me do confinement.. But asking me not to touch water.. drink water.. dunno wat i can do.. i tried not.. but at times.. no choice...

Today Lucas has his first bath.. he enjoys it.. no crying.. and when wanting to clean him.. he starts to cry liao.. haha.. he knows what going on..

Genevieve was doing fine at home but at times... you can really see that she is jealous.. She will gives a sad face and now worst.. she doesnt want to go school.. At times when Lucas was sleeping.. she tried to wake him up and wanting to carry him.. play wif him.. But Lucas can onli do tat in e later mth..

I think we have put alot of attention on Genevieve instead of Lucas.. as to pacify her first.. if not her emotion will greatly affected..

Happy family...

I have a beautiful.. wonderful family.. and i am very fortuate to have them all.. I love you all.. My hubby... Eric.. Beautiful Genveieve and Cutie Lucas...

Hubby helped me alot during tis tough period.. and i found out.. he's pretty a nice cook.. He cook for my confinement meal.. not bad for someone who never go into kitchen..

See the diff between us..Tis is our hospital meal..

Lucas is abit of headach.. In the morning.. he can adapt pretty well.. sleep whole day.. but nite time.. He 's pretty active.. making me abit of tiring... Genevieve another headache.. Keep wanting to carry Lucas.. jux tat her strength is not right.. But she loved him alot.. can see from her action...

See how active he is during night 3am..

crying for attention..

Sometimes thinking back.. When after having Genevieve.. Things did not turn out quite well.. but at least i am not tat tired.. can sleep as and when i wan.. Now how i hope there is someone for me.. But i noe.. I can do it.. With my hubby support..

Home Sweet Home..

Home Sweet Home.. Lucas.. Yday Lucas and i was discharge from hospital.. But dunno why.. i have a sudden fright.. I was feeling abit blues.. I should be happy.. at the same time.. I sudden feel i have forgotten how to take care of new born.. forgotten wat i should do next..

Waiting to go home

Lucky hubby was calm enough.. He told me not to worry.. With him around.. i feel so calm.. But wat am i going to do when he started for work.. can i cope?? i think i can.. Jux little scare of Genevieve.. Putting her to bed is so hard.. not so easy.. mayb need an hr or more.. sometime worst.. Even when i think she is a big ger liao.. When coming to bed time.. she still a little baby..

Home Sweet Home

Genevieve loved her litle brother alot... She wants to express herself but mayb the strength is not right.. teaching her slowly.. She will always say she's a big sister.. her baby brother.. so sweet.. When Lucas awake.. He starts to see here and there.. wondering where he is.. who is carrying him..


My 2 precious little baby.. Wonderful to have you all.. I loved you all.. Esp hubby.. thx for being wif me all the time.. Its hard on you..

2nd day of Lucas

Today is a tiring day.. did not slept well yesterday nite.. Kept waking up for tis check up.. tat shot.. bringing baby in cos too many delivery.. plus Genevieve sleeping wif me... Night time.. she keep moving here and there...

Lucas was abit harder to take care today.. kept crying.. need carry to sleep.. Nurses said its normal.. Understand.. But mi simply too tired liao.. Feeling abit frustrated.. Genevieve also not very cooperative.. When breast feeding Lucas.. She keeps pushing him again.. Tot he was biting mi... I noe wat she was thinking.. She cares for mi.. jux doesnt understand..

We have to be patient... I am trying.. But quite tiring wif an active Genevieve.. Hopefully when days goes.. Things will get better...