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Haha.. dunno why i am so huay jiu today.. searching all those all songs and movies.. hahaa.. really misses it.. Search in youtube.. cause dunno other search engine...


Like Su Rui.. shou qian shou alot.. Its a super duper old song liao.. but to me.. its the most meaning song i ever heard.. esp coming to the end of the song.. I always cry no matter how many times i hear..

I doubt now anyone at my age know SuRui.. Mayb they know Rui En ba.. haha.. I also dunno how i came across her.. but i only heard tis song once.. and i'm in love with it.. so meaningful..


I also search for Jimmy Lim.. I wana find a show regarding a grandfather and grandson show but somehow i jux wouldnt find it.. Instead i found tis Vampire Family.. Its a very funny show.. and i think its the onli show that you can hear alot of F**K words ba.. esp chinese show.. Nice remix too..

Suddenly feels myself so old.. haha.. all tis think abt 10 over years liao.. Time flies.. really.. In the school days.. always think that the time is so slow.. but now.. OMG.. cant imgaine liao..

Moments of thought

Sudden a thoughts of feeling gushed upon me.. I felt so blessed with wat i have right now.. I have my hubby, Eric.. my beautiful daughter, Genevieve and a wonder little boy, Lucas.. Nothing can describe my happiness..

Although there is up and down.. but i am happy with wat i have right now.. and I LOVE IT.. I LOVE YOU ALL..

MY WONDERFUL FAMILY

hao quan

Finally had decide on my little Lucas chinese name.. Hew Hao Quan.. Although had counted his name after a few days he was born.. but i dun seem to like the names except tis.. The rest was too common or too old fashion.. eg.. mao la.. wei la... and kuo la.. sian..

They say Lucas short of jin.. but some of the names i also dun understand how it pop up.. I even tot of waiting to go back to Singapore and get another one to count.. but i think i will upset or anger someone.. so i forget the whole idea and choose tis name..

The name i had in mind is Ze Kai.. but cant be used.. so sad... After so much of consideration.. Finally made up my mind.. Hao Quan..

weird.. weird..

Recently have tis weird weird dreams.. dunno wat's wrong with me.. haiz..

Keep having weird dreams... not jux once or 2 times liao... Its seem so clear yet when i woke up.. i seem blurred abt it.. I cant stopped thinking about it.. and yet i am scared of the dreams.. Normally my nightmares is about chinese vampires.. JIANG SHI.. think sees too much when young..

These dreams seem normal to some but i hated it.. It abt me attenting funerals.. Some of it seem to be someone close to me.. some i dunno... Why??

Think tis nightmare is worst than dreaming of JIANG SHI..

Long week..

Its a long week.. dunno its good or bad.. Hubby onli work for 3 days last week.. Snowing.. and replacing the off day of Martin Luther's day for the CNY.. Sound good right.. so many off days.. haiz.. no loh.. hubby been complaining his backache.. tiredness... been at home most of the time... sad...



CNY and Valentines Day happen to be together on the same day.. but nothing special at all.. onli went joyce's hse for steamboat.. at least a small celebration.. haha... better than nothing...

Wondering why most of them are Genevieve's pics.. hahaaa.. cos i can doll her up and she will make alot funny faces and avoiding my camera...

Snowing... its snowing..

Its Snowing.. Its snowing.. Its snowing at my place..think its sings like tat.. Dunno how to sing liao.. hahahaaa... Genevieve been singing tis song once she saw the snow outside...



Early morning.. woke up.. ready to prepare the day for Genevieve's school... looked at the weather forcast.. wow.. Cold.. Snow... I quickly peeked out my window.. all cover with snow.. wow.. Beautiful...

my favorite pic

my backyard

Stress.. Stress.. Stress...

Dunno why suddenly i feel so stress.. was doing fine until it was their bedtime loh... why it is so difficult to them to bed??

I always feel very stress putting them to bed.. cos Lucas not sleeping wif us.. using the monitor to listen for his sound.. but if Genevieve not yet asleep.. mi have to turn the sound lower so if Lucas cry.. i have to find excuses to g out.. as she will stop mi to attend to her bro.. She is too used of getting too much affection from us..

I was also thinking putting Lucas's bed together with us so tat we can look after him easier.. but on the other hand.. i am also scare that Genevieve go disturb him sleep.. making noises.. or when either of them cries.. will wake the other one up.. haiz..

I dunno why a sudden i feel so stress up.. the kids?? housework?? money?? moving back to Singapore?? Staying where?? Job?? like so many things to think.. told myself not to think too much liao.. but cant help it..

I feel so bad jux now.. when trying to put Lucas to sleep.. Genevieve was there making so much noises.. making me so frustrated.. so angry.. that i threw her alone back to her room and close the door.. She was crying so badly... i was really so angry.. but when i went back to pat her to sleep.. she was gently patting me to sleep.. my heart melted... I shouldnt throw my temper at her.. i understand that even adults are not able to fall asleep immediately.. let alone a kid.. haiz.. feel really lously...

I must learn to control my temper.. They are my little angels.. I dun wan to be a devil to them..

Simply Lazy

Why am i so lazy.. I was wondering to myself at times.. I got so much things to do yet.. I dun wan to do.. haiz.. but truly.. the weather played a veri big part to it.. hahaa.. pushing blame to mother nature... tis few days the weather was cold.. jux wana slag and log into facebook.. and face it... mayb tat's y called facebook.. LAME...


I can do lots of things leh.. why why why.. i dun wan to do... keep letting them pile up... stressing myself up... telling myself i have lots of things to do and must finish within tis timing... so when doing the chores.. i was so stress up.. plus in between need to look after Genevieve and Lucas..


I can do so much things if i gives up the times surfing facebook... but i simply dunno why.. it is so addictive... OMG.. facebook itself is a virus to me... i wanted to spend more time wif Genevieve and Lucas.. I need to spend less time in Facebook.. teach me how.. How.. How..