Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Universal Studio

Last week was RSAF family day.. As hubby got a free ticket to Universal Studio.. he bought one for me too.. Yippi.. so excited when i heard it..esp Genevieve.. She was so happy that she was going to see SHREK...


We took a monorail which was jux a stop away from the Vivocity.. and the ride was jux 3bucks onli.. quite a deal..

When we step inside.. wow... looked not bad.. quite nice.. but when we starts to walk around.. Disappointment.. Small and not much of things to see.. dun mention the ride.. cos we are not into it.. somemore they keep mentioning that the locals are talented but in the show.. i dun sees any locals, all foreigners.. so sad..

But i cant expect too much.. Singapore is small.. there's not much they cant do too.. Thus Universal Studio considered not bad liao.. However if yearly they dun change the theme of the park.. I sure they wont last long.. This year their main theme is SHREK and Megadascar.. I hope they will change to something else next year by making use of their beautiful castle..


Yanwen told me the shows are nice.. But too bad.. we did not went in to see.. Dunno why also.. haiz... mascott not much too.. then worst..Genevieve was so timid.. she dun even dared to get close to them.. Normally we sees her so aggressive.. so fierce so attitude.. but when coming to these.. she veri timid one..

People alway says.. ' Fierce pple are veri timid' kind of true.. In the end we went back abt 4 plus.. veri early hor.. we reach abt 12 plus and went hm abt 4 plus.. jux 4 hrs inside the studio and we are done..


That's our Universal Studio..

Monday, June 28, 2010

Ballet

Sunday morning.. brought Genevieve to a ballet trial lesson.. abit far atJurong west recreational center.. looks not bad.. alots of facilities.. so sad my area dun have something like tat.. We went into the class... all small little girls abt her age.. so cute wearing the tutu..


Genevieve was excited abt it.. but once she stepped into the class.. She went stoned.. Keep stickly onto mi.. I can see that she understand wat the teacher says.. but she did not follow.. mayb she is shy ba.. However after the lesson.. knows wat she told her daddy..


"The ballet class si so silly.. I can learn myself"


OMG.. wat's did she's says.. cant stand her.. haiz.. anyway.. had signed her up for another trial at AMK tis coming saturday morning.. going to compared the school, and the price.. of cos AMK is nearer but hopefully theprice wont be too expensive..


Sometimes i dun understand Genevieve at all.. Nowadays she gets cranky forno reason.. cries and cries.. we kept telling ourself not to harsh to her..but she seems to be testing our patients.. wana says GOOD LUCK to her..seeing when the volacno erupts..


But at times she kinda cute.. now whenever she on her daddy's car.. she will called him Uncle..


Taxi uncle.. Pls turned here and there.. then getting off the car.. must pay money and need get change back.. hahaaa..


Worst.. u knows wat.. she called mi

'OLD LADY' omg!! YOU ARE FAT.. : ~ (


so sad..


Hubby also likes to say Lucas.. 'Jie jie always bullied you.. you still wana followed her' My Lucas is so adorable.. so cute.. but poor thing.. always neglected byus.. cos i dun wana keep carrying him until a habit to him.. somemore onli Genevieve can make Lucas laugh out loud.. hahaaa.. even a simple move.. Tat's my 2 precious babies..

Saturday, June 26, 2010

calm down

Ever since i came back to SG, I did not give myself some space.. Instead i stress myself.. and has lesser time for my kids.. Sometimes i feel that i should calm down..
Do things slowly.. dun stress myself.. keep puttingthings on my mind.. Jammed liao..
CALM DOWN.. CALM DOWN..
Take my time.. why keep rushing myself whereas they are not rushing me liao.. I should give myself more time..
ENJOY.. Enjoy
I will be ending tis job till tis mth yr.. First time quitting a job so fast... I was too 'chong dong' liao to so fast get a job and never think whether is tis job suitable.. Its dun suit me.. I did not give myself enough time to sort out my mind and think what i really want to work as.. Instead of taking up any job tat comes to me.. I needs to start to clear mymind.. telling myself what i really wan.. Its not difficult.. Although things cannot always be prefect or get wat i wan.. I should still think probably before i agreed to anything.. I have learn a lesson from here..
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Being back to SG for almost a month liao.. I really did not enjoy myself at all.. I should starts to enjoy and meet up all my friends.. Dinners and go JUST ONE TIME - CLUBBING..
Long time no Clubbing liao... But i still need to seek hubby approval.. Hopefully he agrees..
I also wana go dating.. of cos la.. wif my hubby.. 2 persons ONLY.. watch a movie .. have dinner.. strolling.. But I have to leave my kids wif my MIL..I know she can take care.. My kids like her too.. But dunno why a part ofme is holding back.. I should be happy as it will create a chance for me and hubby to have our own world..
Why am i holding back..
OPEN my mind... OPEN..
only knows how to say but dunno how to do..
STUPID!!STUPID!!

Saturday, June 12, 2010

is tis the one..

I FOUND A JOB...


but dunno whether i shld be happy anot.. I thought this is wat i wan.. but i never expect it to happen so fast.. I jux send out my CV not long.. I tot i need to wait for a week or more.. Worst start job next monday.. so fast!! It's a 1mth contract job.. If both parties are satisfied with each other.. Might convert to perm..


I liked to give it a try as a new experience.. If not i might only can find jobs like teller which i dun wan.. But on the other hand.. I had not enjoyed my stay since i came back.. not yet bringing the kids to shopping.. water park and etc.. I kept slapping my own hand.. 1 tell me to go work.. the other tell me to stay home..


Aiyaya..


I haven't start work already missing my babies liao.. start work how.. haiz..

Friday, June 11, 2010

Marriage

Wat is marriage?? Is it just the two of us or not.. I must admit it is not easy to maintain a marriage.. Its is really hard when you loved the person more than he love you.. or even if he love you more but doesn't show it..



My hubby is someone who doesnt know how to express himself well.. I also dunno why or wat makes mi attract to him.. Strange hor... I also dunno understand.. haahaaa...



Since we came back.. I feels that hubby feeling has split.. My share had greatly divided.. not small but veri small.. I dun like.. I feels tat i am no longer number 1 liao.. He cares more towards his parents and brother than to me..


Sometimes i am really angry tat most of his attention shifted to them.. I already had lesser attention beside the kids.. haiz.. I know my hubby so well and yet i dunno wat i wan to grumble abt..


GRUMBLE.. GRUMBLE.. I REALLY HAVE A LOT TO GRUMBLE..


Or i shld say... i only know how to grumble and thinking negative instead of looking at the bright side.. I am a negative person... stupid me.. dunno think so much for wat.. hubby also scare of me.. I wana think positive.. but jux dunno why i cant.. esp ever since i came back..


I used to have my kids jux to myself and to listen to me.. Now they are too busy playing with their grandparents.. I felt begin abandone.. sad.. But at least i can see they are more happy.. which i shld be happi too..


I must learn to be happy.. Need to tell myself everyday i must be happy... HAPPY.. HAPPY..

Thursday, June 3, 2010

face the reality

I must face it.. Face it.. but how.. I wan my old life back.. staying at home with my precious... But we cant.. Expenses are really too high.. We had alot of expenses.. Worst.. hubby tot of getting another car.. can we afford... Why cant we jux have our old life back..



We have our own house.. but currently its rented out.. the term ends in Nov.. thus we will be getting it back.. but if we get it back.. are we going to stay there? If we stay there.. are we able to afford it.. haiz.. thinking too much liao..

AM I TOO FREE....


I want to have a more consistent life.. something tat belong to our every own.. but at times i also dunno wat i really wan.. aiya.. i kept complaining and complaining.. think think and think too much..

WAT I REALLY WAN..

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

make up my mind

I must make up my mind and tend not to think too much.. But i just cant determine wat i wan and wat to do.. I had been looking around for school for Genevieve but the want i'm interested in either too ex or no slot..

I know i shld find a school for them earlier but we jux made up our minds to stay wif my mom.. thus it's abit too late to find school for her.. I tot of sending her to enrichment classes.. Next year then enroll her to childcare.. Then headache again.. need to find child care for her and Lucas for next year.. Found one.. again.. dunno whether good anot.. Haiz.. wat to do..

Told myself to let it go so looking around schools in woodland.. but nearby i dun really like.. even they have place.. Hubby keep wanting to find woodland cos when we not free his mom can help.. But wat abt the days we not wking.. we need to come here early morning.. haiz.. he jux dun understand.. he jux wanted to get a car.. haiz..