TIRING DAY..

Today was a tiring day.. Hubby was not feeling well.. He feel chilled and having bad cough and flu.. The whole night cant sleep... Poor boy.. I was also tired.. whole nite cant sleep well too.. keep waking up..

Early morning woke up early cause Genevieve was early.. Hubby was stil feeling bad.. helped him called doctor for appointment and drove him there.. So different from Singapore.. Seeing doctor was like going hospital.. The doctor came in later but earlier a nurse came in.. She looked more like a doctor to me..

It seem like a rush day for me.. Having to take care of hubby and Genevieve.. then do the housework.. like so much to do.. everending.. Clear up the table... messy again.. haiz when can i finish cleaning.. mayb i go back Singapore liao still not clear up.. But today the most accomplishment i had done was fixing my baby playpen.. Was figuring for quite some time and finally FINISH.. But very super duper tired after that.. lay down on the sofa fall asleep liao..

Brought Genevieve out for a short play.. most importantly. she enjoyed.. but she also gotten some mosqito bites.. Poor Genevieve.. I did too.. haha... wat a day.. Now my house still very messy but too tired to do cleaning liao.. Going sleep.. haahhaa...

Nite..

I HOPE.. I HOPE..

Today went for my check up.. realise tat the gynae here do not do regular scanning.. About 3-4 times throughout your pregnacy.. What.. ok.. nothing to say.. so diff from Singapore.. In Singapore.. Every visit i get to see my baby Genevieve.. Now no.. Poor thing.. that's why I HOPE hubby will allow me to go do the ultrascan.. Hopefully cross my fingers.. cos to him.. as long as baby is fine.. is ok.. but mayb i am too free ba.. or wat.. my mind starts to think too much.. more than i did when having Genevieve..

I did an ultrascan for Genevieve too cos think tat is a must ba.. Seeing every single parts of her body.. The feeling was undescribeable... Think here more advance or PAY more money.. They have the 4D scan.. can see details.. Must ask Yanwen and get more information..

Dunno why whenever i came back from others people house.. I have the urge to clean my house.. It was too messy liao.. OMG.. I tend to stress myself liao.. cannot.. I have to relax.. thus I HOPE i can starts to do bit by bit.. haha.. less than a year.. i am going back liao.. now then wanted to clear my house.. haha.. No choice.. my house feng shui is lousy.. bad design and poor ventilation and not much sunlight.. look so dimmed and bored..

I HOPE after cleaning Genevieve can have more rooms to play.. She is so poor things.. I bought so much toys for her.. In the end i all packed away.. left nothing much for her.. causing her have to see DVD all day.. haiz.. bad mommy.. Hopefully tomorrow i can finis the corner and bring some toys for her..

Genevieve.. Give mommy some times.. I can DO IT.. I LOVE YOU..

PUTTING IN MORE EFFORT

Suddenly feel that i have to put in more effort for Genevieve.. Think both hubby and i are too addicted to games.. Facebook.. OMG... We kept playing the games and always ask Genevieve to play or watch TV on her own.. I know she feel bored.. so now i am trying to cut down.. But addicted to new game Treasure mania.. haha.. Die la.. like tat how can..

Hubby been working and when he's at home.. He played games.. I can understand he need to have his own time too.. but when he's at home then i can do other things.. Then Genevieve really need our attention.. I do feel she prefer school then home.. sad rite... I shld do something.. Even her toys.. we kept aside.. never let her play.. I also dunno why.. mayb we scared of keeping ba.. Felt tat i am a selfish mom.. Even her bath time.. I let her play alone in the bath tub and myself.. play game til i happy then go in..

I know i am not a very good mother but i will try harder.. I wanted to change for better.. spend more time n interact with her.. However after awhile i feel tired if not i will have the tempation to play games..

What should i do... What should i do..

I also had reschedule a new photography session for her.. I dunno whether she like it anot.. but i really do feel she look veri pretty in it.. I know hubby dun like tis kind of things.. he prefer simple.. but i wanted to create a memory for her.. Hopefully hubby can give in to me..

It always been a dream for me to take tis kind of photos but it never come true... that's why i am putting on Genevieve.. Hope Genevieve will like it and love it..

BAD WEEK..

Think i onli have time to blog when hubby work nite shift cos he haven't know i have my own blog.. or shld i say.. no one know yet.. haha.. Cos i had not know how to deco my blog and it looked kind of boring..

Recently not been veri good for me.. i bought Genevieve for photo shoot but it did not go out well.. arrange for another appointment but the lady cannot make it.. Dunno whether to make another appointment anot.. haiz.. Hubby not very keen of bringing her to take too.. Worst my camera len cannot close completely.. Think Genevieve threw it on the floor.. OMG.. It was jux bought a year onli.. so sad tat my tears drop.. And worst Genevieve not behaving very good that day and kana by hubby.. Dunno is it my fault.. feel so bad by tat.. Send to repair like not worth the price.. rather get a new one.. but if get a new one.. like wasted.. cos it is stil in a good condition..

Sunday 20 Sept.. went to hot air balloon fair.. We did not saw any balloon because we were too early.. and the weather was super duper hot.. so we decided to leave early.. and we went marketing... After coming home Genevieve asked us to stick on the stickers she got from the fair..

Can guess whose hand..

Till today was a veri good weather.. cooling.. think tis weather will last for a few days ba... After sending Genevieve to school.. Hubby and I went to Grapevine to shop.. Hahaaa... Really without Genevieve.. shopping was much more easier.. We bought alot of children stuffs.. from Children Place.. Mostly 99cents.. bought 20 over items.. We jux take and take.. dun care who to give.. decide that when we go back ba.. haha

Anyway have fun shopping.. jux the 2 of us.. Heehee... Somemore i bought something esp for hubby.. Hope to improve the relationship between us..

SURPRISES..

Today i had 3 surprises.. First early in the morning i woke up seeing something which i think i long time never receive from hubby liao.. Flowers and a card.. Tears started rolling down from my eyes.. the next moment i saw my hubby.. I really touched by what he did.. I gave him a hug and a kiss and instead.. he say... WHY am i crying.. but i think he knows that i'm touched by his little moves..

After sending Genevieve to school.. Hubby took me to a place which i wanted to go for a long time.. But i did not have a chance.. Becos of Geneveieve.. However i regreted going liao.. lost a bomb.. haiz.. nvm.. I shld leave when i sees the situation was right.. but i kept playing.. In the end LOST... OMG... I want to save money.. instead.. i spend money.. Hubby was stil tempted to play but i told him we had to go to pick Genveieve from school.. If not i think we will lose more..

We went to buy a cake and then Hubby bought us for a LOBSTER feast.. wow.. It was delicious.. ok.. abit x.. but reasonable.. Genevieve was so excited about the cake.. hahaaa... She was a BIG girl now.. Cant imagine how fast she grow.. and I am getting old.. so sad.. even my skin looked so dull.. no color nothing.. so sad.. i tried to take some pics for myself.. all turn out.. OLD WOMAN.. OMG.. I am really old liao.. Half way eating.. i received a call.. i duno whose tat person but he say he got a bouq of flowers for mi.. I cant hear him properly so i ask him the address he was sending to.. It was my house... Who can tat be.. but too bad i was at home.. he said he will leave it at the leasing office.. then I tried to ask hubbywho was it from.. but he doesnt wan to say...

Taken by Genevieve

Upon receiving the flowers.. I quickly see the note who had send me.. OMG.. it was my sister.. My tears almost fall again but i told myself i had to control.. That was my second surprise.. I loved you all.. After stepping into the house.. i quickly on the Laptop.. Lucky found my sister to be online.. so happy.. at least someone.. the feeling was so hard to express... while chating with her.. i check my email.. third surprise.. Meisian.. Left mi an email.. Although i do not know how to open.. but she left me a songs online.. Veri touching.. Her family had alway been so good to us and last yr they also send me a birthday song.. and some greeting.. Its really so loving of them..

But i was mad at myself.. Firstly is the temptation i cant resist myself.. which cause me a heart break.. then next is the CVS coupon.. I simply forgotten abt it.. When i remembered it.. it was too late.. How stupid can i be.. I dun dared to bring it up to hubby scare he will scold mi.. somemore it was getting late and dark.. i tot of going myself but i was scared and Genevieve not yet asleep.. OMG.. wasted the coupon... I made me so mad at myself.. haiz.. Think wat.. i was tryingbto take out on Genevieve.. It was bad of me.. But at the same time.. It was also bedtime.. haiz.. I was an idiot myself..

However i thank what hubby done by me today... The gifts i received and the greeting i got.. I made mi feel so touch and warm.. I LOVED YOU.. I will be back soon and reunion with you all..

BORING SUNDAY..

Its been some times since i blog liao... cos nothing much to blog abt.. Days have been the same nothing much... but have been looking for flight for my parents to come during dec cos i cant find any confinement lady.. Haiz so sad..

Today hubby have to do guard.. so wont be coming home today.. Worst it had been raining for the past few days.. I was thinking of bring Genevieve for photo shoot.. haiz.. scare later i cant handle her in the rain.. So i decided to stay home.. I tried teaching Genevieve colors in both english and chinese.. Hahaha... really scare she dunno any when she goes back.. But to no vain.. She cant keep still and listen.. so sad.. haiz.. Maybe she is like me.. cannot taught by someone we know.. have to be a 3rd party..

Last Thursday.. Hubby went to do scanning wif me... The first time for tis baby.. cos most of the time he is working morning shift so cant accompany me.. Feeling so excited.. the baby had been moving, kicking me alot and very painful.. but i love it.. The feeling was hard to describe.. When you are a mother then you will understand... haha..

Cant wait for the baby to come out.. so looking forward to his arrival.. Hopefully will be the same day as Genevieve.. I loved you all..

OMG.. SAD SAD AND DISAPPOINTED

I simply dun believe my ears when i first heard it... "I am going to hurt you" with the action of hands putting around her neck.. OMG.. I did hear tat from my baby Genevieve's teacher.. I broke down when i reach e car... i cant believe it.. and yet it's the truth... My mind went totally blank.. keep thinking wat the hell is going on.. Where did she learn that.. She watches Barney everyday or Dora... Nothing else... No drama... NONONO.. Where she learnt it from... it puzzled mi and hubby..

Today i am quite in a good mood cos done all my ironing and packing baby's stuffs.. Thought of bring Genevieve go Mac and library after her school.. But when i heard wat her teacher told me.. I suddenly dunno wat to do.. It caught mi by surprise... Wat a Big surprise... Ibroke down whenever i think of it... I thought she wil nap in school cos last night she did not slept well and she woke up veri early today... But she did not and did all tis things.. Did my teaching went wrong... Wat went wrong.. Am i a failure mom??? All tis Questions popped up of my mind... Somemore she had 2 accidents today... Is she unwell? She wasnt like herself...

OMG.. i simply dunno wat to do now..Help!!! pls.. Think i have to put more efforts on her.. Now she was behaving tis way.. wat's going on when she grown up.. Tis question keeps probing mi..

Anyway i have told hubby..We are going to stay at my parents place when we go back to Singapore.. I was thinking not to work first til we total settle down... or mayb when i am abt 30 ba... I wan to take care both of them my ways... and my parents place have 2 rooms... they wont interfer to my teaching... I had made up my mind and tat's it...

Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day...