Insomnia!

Slept at around 12midnight.. waking up at 2.50am..

Can't sleep..

Omg..

What am i going to do..

Played Iphone game.. 4.39am..

No..No.. have to stop.. Go sleep...

Moments later..

Lucas cry..

Pacified and go back sleep..

Genevieve cries..

'Mommy mommy.. sleep beside me...'

Dun think i have any sleep..

Haiz..

Maybe i have put too much "INVISIBLE STRESS" on myself..

Yday had a talk with hubby..

What we want in the future..

What are our goals..

When talk about this.. hubby alway says i think too much.. sooner or later i will go nuts.. I agreed with him.. I tried to stop.. but to no vain..

My frien also mention before asking me to see a psychiatrist.. have thought off that before..

Maybe later ba.. She says will give some medicines to let the brain from thinking or going wild..

Think i am going IMH soon..

HaaHaaa..

How i wish that i can be like a baby..

so carefree..

Eat and Play.. then Play and Eat..

But if i wan to turn back time.. Where or when should i stopped..

Went to a wedding dinner somewhere in March.. My mom's father.. brother's son.. sound very distant and far hor.. ok la.. Quite like the grand aunt.. always friendly and cheerful.. Think she is jus a few years older than my mom..

My family got quite a big age gap.. Both my father and mother side..

Mom's side..

Her youngest aunt is 1 year younger than her loh.. and my youngest aunt or uncle.. dunno poly graduated anot..

Dad's side..

Erm..

My oldest nephew is 16 years old now.. youngest cousin is only 7 years old ba..

Wow..

Me really old liao..

Doing Silly Faces

Dunno what is looking or daydream about..

Lucas was really like a young handsome MAN on that day..

Wanting to eat by himself..

Do everything by his every own..

Just cannot keep still..

Running here and there..

Eating on his own.. dun wan daddy feed

"What you doing" (设计对白) "Are you trying to taking my food away...

Hahaaahaaa.. He's so cute..

Took some mother and daughter pics

My Mom and I

Xin Hui's cheek is really chubby

My Daddy and Mommy

Daddy's Face is so FIERCE..

Finally Hubby and MI

Monday.. got to work.. but strange.. I don't feel bluzz.. Quite like it.. 10 more days to 1mth for tis job liao.. Quite relaxing..

Best of all..

IN MY OWN WORLD..

Not much restrictions.. I do not need to answer for anyone, face anyone.. Just responsible for my very own project.. 1 supervisor..

Although share office with others.. but its so comfortable and the same times, listen to their interesting rebate.. : )

Enjoy.. Using the time i have.. Did a bit of photo edition..

Explore and Enjoy..

My Beautiful Princess had grown so much..

My Handsome Little Prince.. So Adorable..

My 2 precious babies had grown so much...

Although at times, have up and downs.. It all worth for this 2 precious..

Never had enough of them..

A Rare Screen in the house

That's what kept Lucas guai guai sitting down

At times i dunno wat i should blog about.. But seeing my friends blog so nice and sweet.. making me have the urge to blog.. I'm bad at expressing myself and maybe bad at vocab... But nevertheless.. mayb it's a start for me to start learning again

I wanted to change the skin.. But as you can see i failed.. Have to wait and see who can help me liao..

Where shall we start..

From the day i got my Iphone..

Yes..

Genevieve taking pic with her daddy and barney

Erm

My Turn..

Lucas look so blurred

Normally we will take the picture first then show him.. Thus

He was wondering why he can see himself in the camera.

Hope to have a new start..

I really hope every day from now.. I can be more hardworking in posting.. Since now i have some of my own time.. I wish to keep every memory.. every moment that i can remember..

I do not have much memory of my childhood.. Hopefully by doing this.. I can help my babies to 'lock' their. So when they grown up.. Somehow they will have some memories..

But Where Do I Start..

From Genevieve..

when she was a baby..

How I Hope..

Impossible

Lucas when he was a baby...

NO

Because i am simply to lazy to dig or recall..

Sorry babies.. I only start NOW.. But not much pics too.. As most of it is from my Iphone.. Will try to way more time to upload more.. Best is from my facebook.. More pics to see.. Issit better..

Hope it goes well.. cos i am really bad at blog..

Yesterday saw the news that Japan having 8.9 earthquake and tsunami. Heartbroken and worried too.. Although i do not know anyone staying or on tour there.. But lifes were gone.. Many went missing.. and not least.. News reported that the next few days will have around 7.0 earthquake..

Natural Disaster unavoidable .. Its fate..

Furthermore mom and dad going month end.. Should i ask them not to go.. But they are so keen and excited.. and they are going to Hokkiado..

Haiz..

Worried for hubby as he is on deployment to Indonesia and its is also affected by the quake.. Skype with him and he says can feel the shake.. but still safe.. How i hope he is by my side now..

Prayed hard.. Hope tis disaster will go off fast and lesser damages..

Time Flies

Time flies.. Tried not to look back as it cant change anything.. It had became history.. Missed?? Dun think have much to miss also. Dunno why..

Dunno at which point of time.. My circle of friends is getting smaller and smaller.. I did not make an effort to maintain the friendship or I prefer to be a loner.. At times when I feel wanting to find friends.. Looking at my contact list.. Dun seem to find anyone.. but at times.. I simply dun wish to be found.. what wrong with me..

I want to go back to the STATE?? Or stay in SINGAPORE.. In SINGAPORE, where all my family and friends and I belong.. I also dunno.. mayb I am too free to let my mind go wild.. i wanted to look for a job.. but what type of jobs i want.. I also cant make up my mind..

Haiz..

Seeing other people.. Simple life and they are happy.. I also have a simple life but why am I so unhappy.. I dun need to have a luxury living.. so what do I want..

I dunno.. I wish to know what I wan.. but how.. I want to be more hardworking as I feel that I am simply too lazy.. I told myself to do this and that.. but no vain.. I can jus do nothing.. feel unless.. cant achieve anything..

Studies?? Failed

Be a good housewife.. Think I failed..

A good mother.. Failed

Work?? Think failed too..

What I have achieved so far.. I really have lost my way.. I need someone to guide me.. but think twice.. why I need someone when I can do myself.. even there is someone..

will I follow?

Seem like a failure..