Yesterday saw the news that Japan having 8.9 earthquake and tsunami. Heartbroken and worried too.. Although i do not know anyone staying or on tour there.. But lifes were gone.. Many went missing.. and not least.. News reported that the next few days will have around 7.0 earthquake..

Natural Disaster unavoidable .. Its fate..

Furthermore mom and dad going month end.. Should i ask them not to go.. But they are so keen and excited.. and they are going to Hokkiado..

Haiz..

Worried for hubby as he is on deployment to Indonesia and its is also affected by the quake.. Skype with him and he says can feel the shake.. but still safe.. How i hope he is by my side now..

Prayed hard.. Hope tis disaster will go off fast and lesser damages..

Time Flies

Time flies.. Tried not to look back as it cant change anything.. It had became history.. Missed?? Dun think have much to miss also. Dunno why..

Dunno at which point of time.. My circle of friends is getting smaller and smaller.. I did not make an effort to maintain the friendship or I prefer to be a loner.. At times when I feel wanting to find friends.. Looking at my contact list.. Dun seem to find anyone.. but at times.. I simply dun wish to be found.. what wrong with me..

I want to go back to the STATE?? Or stay in SINGAPORE.. In SINGAPORE, where all my family and friends and I belong.. I also dunno.. mayb I am too free to let my mind go wild.. i wanted to look for a job.. but what type of jobs i want.. I also cant make up my mind..

Haiz..

Seeing other people.. Simple life and they are happy.. I also have a simple life but why am I so unhappy.. I dun need to have a luxury living.. so what do I want..

I dunno.. I wish to know what I wan.. but how.. I want to be more hardworking as I feel that I am simply too lazy.. I told myself to do this and that.. but no vain.. I can jus do nothing.. feel unless.. cant achieve anything..

Studies?? Failed

Be a good housewife.. Think I failed..

A good mother.. Failed

Work?? Think failed too..

What I have achieved so far.. I really have lost my way.. I need someone to guide me.. but think twice.. why I need someone when I can do myself.. even there is someone..

will I follow?

Seem like a failure..