Regretted

Recently feels really bad.. I had never feels tis bad before.. I have told myself tat i wanted to stop breastfeeding liao.. cos i am veri tired and stressful.. and wanted to lessen the supply.. thus the frequency of expressing had lessen.. till now 2 times a day.. going nthing soon

I have regretted liao.. I donated alot to hospital which is good but now my storage can onli last him less than a week ba.. I dunno why i have tis feeling.. Alot of friens told me before.. they wanted to give also cannot.. cos no supply at all.. I have.. but why.. Tis had bother me alot..

I have told myself several times.. Its ok.. Jux give formula.. no worries.. but i jux cant get it off my mind.. making me more stress.. forcing myself to eat..

Seeing his face.. makes me wana give him more..

The next thing tat make me feels bad.. is towards my gal..Genevieve.. Feels so really bad tht i went back to work so fast.. and keep working.. I cant remember the times i had with her.. If i could turned back time.. I will take all my maternity leave before going back to work..

Lucas's Passport

Finally.. Lucas passport is here.. yay.. can bring them plane liao..



Thought of going NYC in the first place when the air tickets are cheap but Lucas passport is not here yet.. scare when we book liao... his passport still not yet arrived then die loh.. But any way we decided not to go..



Planned to go nearby place.. Corpus Christi instead.. go beach.. like Singapore no beach hor.. I wanted to go Missouri to see precious moment.. but onli hubby alone driving.. so after thinking.. no.. so beach here we come..

Lucas

Lucas had been drooling alot.. and seems to be EYEing on our food.. He will starred and starred at the food not us.. and starts to drool.. hahaaa.. so cute and funny loh.. His daddy and sister like to tease him.. and not to mention me la.. poor boy.. but not to worry.. he can eat cereal liao..

starring at the food and drool

naughty daddy teasing him