Today i posted this on my facebook..

'Dun feel loved or be love.. Not to say treasured by someone.. Mi jux a 没用的。。'

Thinking what his reaction when he see..
but doubt he will see..

Who am i to him..

Nobody.. I suppose..

I am very upset and disappointed..
Not to say angry..

Since last week.. i already asked him to go watch movie..
Our last movie is so long ago..

Wanting to spend some quality time with him..
He asked people along..
Nevermind if he intend to ask people along..
But in the end..
Somehow never manage to go

Today morning.. I told him..

'Let watch a movie tonight'

'OK' He said but tonight got midnight meh..

I told him tomo public holiday thus got midnight..
11.25pm
Jux in time after putting the kids to bed..

NOON..

I called him..
To top up petrol first if he wan to..
Then go to the movie as not to waste time..

He said nevermind..

OK..
Dinner..
His mobile rang..

Dunno who is on the other side of the line...
Only heard him mention..

'okok.. your go book firdt.. later i come..'

Firstly i tot is going movie..

But no..

He had forgotten..

I am angry.. Super duper angry..
But instead.. He ignored me..

Please..

Thinking back..

Just a few days ago..
He called me 没用的。。
Because i kept asking him make milk.. do this and that

! ! !
What he means...
Super duper pissed off
I do not want to bring up cos i dont want to quarrel

But he did tis to me..

WHO AM I TO HIM..

I think nobody ba..

I am very sad..
Very..
But does he understand..
Does he know..
No..

Cause he dont care..

Just not i still pinning hope
Hoping he will coax me..
aplogize for forgetting our date..
Later he will acc me out for movie..

No.. No.. No..

He did not..
He left without a word..

I dunno why am i hoping..

To him.. I'm just a nobody..
Even if i am somebody..
is a 没用的 somebody。。

Frankly.. I am very emotion Now..
But who can i tell..
Who can i turn to..
Nobody..

Really..
I dunno what i wan to do next
Ignore him?
I really do not want to talk to him..
But for the kids..
I have to..
I feel so inbalance..

Whatever i do..
For him..

I even placed him in front of the kids..

I felt that i have no place in his..