Regretted

Recently feels really bad.. I had never feels tis bad before.. I have told myself tat i wanted to stop breastfeeding liao.. cos i am veri tired and stressful.. and wanted to lessen the supply.. thus the frequency of expressing had lessen.. till now 2 times a day.. going nthing soon

I have regretted liao.. I donated alot to hospital which is good but now my storage can onli last him less than a week ba.. I dunno why i have tis feeling.. Alot of friens told me before.. they wanted to give also cannot.. cos no supply at all.. I have.. but why.. Tis had bother me alot..

I have told myself several times.. Its ok.. Jux give formula.. no worries.. but i jux cant get it off my mind.. making me more stress.. forcing myself to eat..

Seeing his face.. makes me wana give him more..

The next thing tat make me feels bad.. is towards my gal..Genevieve.. Feels so really bad tht i went back to work so fast.. and keep working.. I cant remember the times i had with her.. If i could turned back time.. I will take all my maternity leave before going back to work..